This blog is just to cheer me up! I am going through some major hell right now. Ive just moved out of a place where a roommate thought that "Hindu" was a language. Of course, other things like my never being home, leaving the microwave door ajar for 5 minutes and having a lot of energy really bothered her too much to live with me. Its a shame because the other roommate was North Indian and we really got along well.

My life is consequently a bloddy mess and Im living at a friend's now, until this situation sorts itself out.

In the meanwhile, Ive been thinking about the upcoming season. Im bummed to be so behind work and my plans but, patience is the only solution to situations that are not in our control.

I was up until 3am working, to catch up on things. I just could not sleep.. Im so wound up, unhappy and miserable right now, I could cry. Added to this, I am in a place where I used to have a great friend but, we are not on talking terms anymore. In fact, this person is like the Ivory Tower of relationships, there are no second chances and "third walls" to climb. I have no idea why I waste time on people that have such big egos in the first place? I have no ego when it comes to my friends, teachers or mentors. I am very clear about that and live my stereotypes.

Anyway, I have a couple of instincts that I have to figure out this coming few months. One of them has to do with patience. The other has to do with taking a few risks. The third has to do with strengthening my inner voice.

Time to go sort out the day and get out of the pity hole I have dug for myself.