Its closer to midnight than I thought it would be.. Ive been listening to Boh Runga for a while, after having ridden my bike today. After a long time, my bike and I are talking to each other again. I missed my bike and I was told the feeling was mutual. As I ponder my next steps, Ive been taking time to rest my tired feet and rejuvenate my mind. I found that music, cooking and training early are the three things that really heighten my senses to the possibilities in a day. Additionally, a job well done also makes me happy, no end. I also like reading but good books are hard to come by. My latest read is "A Thousand Splendid Suns" and it looks very promising so far.

I struggle to reconcile between my life as a quasi-hermit-ess and the need to be around the people I count as my friends. The ones who will listen to me at the end of a long day, commiserate on the state of the world, lift me up when I am down and let me help when they need a hand. Officially speaking, I prefer the quiet places. I need the bustle of my work and the mad schedules every now and then but, 8 months of the year, I am happy working hard, cooking, reading, listening to music, writing and training.

One of my favourite poets is Billy Collins, American poet laureate, that my partner David introduced to me. Of late, the soulful tunes of the Runga sisters (Bic and Boh) and their lyrics more importantly have been very comforting. I know that peace is a fleeting emotion and one wishes to hang on to that feeling for as long as they can but, what if the road not taken involves discovery? I always wondered about people that feel like they are discovering new places, new things or breaking new ground. For example an Amelia Earhart, Ada Lovelace or even our long-distance women runners. Did they miss home? Did they find new horizons measure up to the choice of new environments and playgrounds to discover?

I wonder!

For now, Ill leave you with how I feel, in Boh Runga's words :)

"Follow a trail of thought ‘til
It leads you to your station
And everyone there is on time
No worry or fear will find
Leave your worries and fears behind you"

Im going to uncrowd my life. There is a glimmer of hope!